I have no idea why the font is blue and underlined at the same time.

All these while mama do not like the way i smile.

She said i looked like i was forcing a smile. So, she told me to smile naturally. Effortlessly. And mostly because i always try to heed her advice and the fact that i trust her judgement, as of today i shall not smile as if i am experiencing an abdominal pain.

There you go! But my hair, now they have a life of their own. Here, it looks frizzy and unkempt. Let's not even go to those black roots. Plus, i have got countless of grey hairs. It really is stressing me out. I should certainly do something about it. But doing something would involve lots of cash going down the drain and i simply cannot afford to let that happen. Not with my measly allowance. The life of a student still depending on her parents.

I hate myself for that. For having to rely on them when it comes to financial matters. Turning twenty-one couple of months back serves as a wake up call for me. At this point in time, i should have been independent and handle my life more responsibly. That aside, i have learnt to appreciate my life now and be thankful for what i have. To be gracious for having such loving and supportive parents. Alhamdulillah. I love you, mama & papa.

By the way, i miss you sayang.

Goodnight.